Weight: 158 lbs

 

My Keg dinner turned into a cheat meal last night. It's still okay as my cheat meal is allowed to be on either Friday or Saturday but I initially wanted to save it for Saturday so it wouldn't affect my weigh in!

 

I had an awesome Power Yoga class yesterday. I did the advanced class and had a lot of fun working lots of different twisting postures and headstands. It was great.

 

This week I have to get all of my workouts in on top of following the diet. That means 4 early mornings!!! I have a photo shoot on Thursday which will help with the motivation I am sure.

 

My quote of the day:

 

"Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough." Og Mandino

Weight: 155.5 lbs

 

The week is almost over and it's weigh in #2 tomorrow! Diet-wise I have been spot on and my weekend gives me more freedom than the week, so I am looking forward to that! Next week, I have to get all my workouts in. My web and business stuff has been all figured out as well as the week of Michael's birthday and all of our appointments is done.

 

I have Power yoga this afternoon and Steak dinner at the Keg tonight! Can't wait! Michael and I are going to get ready for Gymboree now. Happy Friday!

 

My quote of the day:

 

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then is not an act, but a habit." - Aristotle

Weight: 155 lbs

 

I am going to frop the ball one more time on working out today only because my intention to wake up early for yoga failed, Michael has his shots, and I have two appointments that just got made for this afternoon! I WILL do 60 minutes on the rebounder tonight which is something (and I have a few shows on my PVR!) but I am really just relying on my diet this week. One thing at a time! Tomorrow I am advancing to my level 2 Power Yoga class and it is at 2:15 pm, Taso is home to watch Michael, and there are no excuses! Also tomorrow is my steak night, and I made sure to make dinner plans at the Keg. Strategy!

 

My quote of the day:

 

"It seems to me that people have vast potential. Most people can do extraordinary things if they have the confidence or take the risks. Yet most people don't. They sit in front of the telly and treat life as if it will go on forever." - Phillip Adams

Weight: 155.5 lbs Yay!

 

My new site is finally up! www.tanisfit.com I feel like I deserve a degree in Computer Science in this process! Today is another busy one all the way through getting some more business stuff finalized, then tomorrow I am getting back on track with my workouts and am planning to get my hot yoga in as well as some cardio. The yoga should feel good as I can totally feel the effects of sitting in this computer chair for so many hours... so happy I don't have a dek job. My back is really feeling it!

 

The diet is going awesome. I have a hungry period from between my fourth and fifth meals, but last night I drank water and tea and was just fine. At this point diet is truly 90% of it. The workouts are impotant but until I get a bit leaner here and lose that last bit of body fat, my conditioning isn't going to take precedence.

 

Adult Gymnastics tonight! Have a feeling it might be my favorite class yet!

 

My quote of the day:

 

"Do or do not... there is no try." - Yoda

My baby boy is ONE!

 

I have the most incredible year of my life with him, watching him grow, change, and need me less and less every day! He is a walking, talking (sort of) sweet and hilarious little guy who is so much fun and gives my life so much purpose!

 

Happy Birthday Baby! I can't believe it has been an entire year!

Weight: 156 lbs (I'll gladly take that!)

 

I'm ahead of the game weight wise which is fun, seeing as I know there will be hard times weight-wise and it's always good to have a cushion. 28 lbs to go now!  The biggest thing that has changed in this diet is my vegetables... hmmm maybe I should have tried this earlier... but the chewing!

 

And I am slacking on exercise... I have been working up to 10 hours a day on this web site and I am determined to get everything in working order. So I am putting working out to the side until I can breathe easy with this task - but I am following my diet perfectly. By the weekend everything will be back on track.

 

My quote of the day:

 

"Feel the fear and do it anyways." Susan Jeffers

Weight: 159 lbs

 

Everything always works itself out... finally bits of stress that have been weighing on me are starting to ease and I plan to have a launch of my new site and access to my training services online by Feb. 1! And I should receive an honorary Doctorate in Computer Science... I just should.

 

I am just getting ready for Michael's and my annual physicals. Last year at this time I weighed around 244! Today Michael and I were a combined weight of 186 lbs! And he's a big guy... who had lots of sugar yesterday!

 

He had a lot of fun celebrating his first birthday yesterday. In the afternoon he had a party with the kids at Gymboree, it was great to see all the little ones of our friends and family, they change so much in the first few years, you just can't see them enough. At night was Michael's party with the adults - a house full of close friends and family. Michael got spoiled again, and it was great for him to have everyone there for his birthday! Thanks again everyone.

 

The diet is still strong and running. I am still chewing... And the only hard part about all the sweets and desserts yesterday was being mindful of not licking my fingers. I washed my hands about 30 times in the 3 hour party. All it would have taken is one taste and somehow I would have justified giving in to a cupcake or something!

 

Workout wise I dropped the ball yesterday, I didn't do anything that constituted as working out. 4 weeks out this would be unacceptable, but 20 weeks out I am going to cut myself a break and hope that I burnt enough calories cleaning, organizing, and prepping that it won't make a difference!

 

My quote of the day:

 

"You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through." Rosalyn Carter 

Weight: 160 lbs (I hope I lose 4 lbs every day... ha ha ha!)

 

Day 1 was a success, I followed my diet perfectly and have also made the conclusion that the reason I don't eat a lot of vegetables is pure laziness. I had 4 servings of vegetables yesterday and I felt like all I did yesterday was chew. Yes, I am this lazy sometimes.

 

Just getting ready for Michael's first birthday festivities beginning today. I just picked up my cupcakes from Buttercream Bake Shoppe - they look and smell spectacular but I don't need to eat any. I know what cupcakes taste like. I also did up a custom cake from Marble Slab that I pick up this afternoon that should be a big hit for party number 2 tonight!

 

My quote of the day:

 

"Once you learn to quit, it becomes a habit." Vincent Lombardi

AM Weight: 164 lbs!!!

 

Yeah Marble Slab! I'm not depressed about it, I pigged out yesterday and now this number is only going to go down from here!

 

It's 11:30 am, I have done my Power Yoga and had my first meal. I am being conscientious of drinking a ton of water and I am looking forward to the bloat in my belly from yesterday's extravaganza to die down. I have clients beginning their diets today too and I am very excited for them as well! It's amazing to see people empower themselves and change their habits and patterns and lives.

 

My quote of the day:

 

"Spectacular achievements come from unspectacular preparation." Roger Staubach

 

 

January 23

AM Weight: 159 lbs

 

Today was a day of unjustifiable indulgences! Perhaps the most calories in one day since the birth of my son!

 

 

Food:

9 am: 4 Eggo Waffles (380) 1/2 Cup Lite Syrup (200)

11 am: Latte (80) 2 Turkey pepperoni (120) 10 Almonds (70)

1 pm: XL Coffee with 2 Milk 2 Sweetener (76) Chocolate Dip Donut (210)

4 pm: Marble Slab: 1 Serving Butter Pecan Ice Cream (450) Honey Wheat Cone (130)

7 pm: Restaurant Size Serving of Butter Chicken (1000) 1 large piece Garlic Naan Bread (350)

8 pm: 1 Bottle Red Wine (653) I shall miss thee...

 

Total Daily Calories: 3719 (Yikes... but worth it!)

Total Monthly Calories: 40 107

 

Activity:

Nothing!

 

Total Monthly Activity: 29 Hours

 

And now to the next chapter...

Not the weigh in I was hoping for, but definitely the weigh in I deserved! I've been a bit slack this week - today has been an pre-meditated gongshow... but tomorrow it's all business! Who cares if I feel slightly nauseous from too much sugar today while my husband goes to pick up greasy Indian food for dinner??? I won't get to eat like this again for a long time!

 

I've been good this year though, Michael will be ONE on Wednesday! One year old! I cannot believe it. It's been quite the year! And next year at this time he'll be getting ready for the terrible twos! Can't wait for that! I love it though, I never knew I could be so in love with someone as I am with Michael. He completely fascinates and amazes me.

 

Tomorrow I will begin my Contest Diet Weigh Ins! Every Saturday I will summarize my week and hopefully you can see my weight drop 1 - 2 lbs every week until June 13. I will not be posting my daily food intake or calories, I am investing a lot of money into this season and want to maintain the integrity of what I am paying for. But I do want to blog each day with an inspirational quote, a daily weigh in, and maybe just a recap on how the day went. I have my diet ready to begin, lots of food, lots of vegetables, and just clean clean clean! I am excited!

January 22

AM Weight: 160 lbs

 

I have been slowly undoing Project December! Tomorrow is my last day before dieting for 2009! I'm probably going to give in to some Marble Slab if I make it down there!

 

Food:

9 am: 1 Cup Fibre One (200) 1/2 Cup Lactaid (45)

11:30 am: 12 Salmon Sushi Rolls (485)

2 pm: Chicken Gumbo Soup (280)

4 pm: 1 Double Double (150) Yeah I did!

6 pm: 20 rice Crackers (166) 20 Almonds (140)

9 pm: 12 Tuna Sushi Rolls (300)

 

Total Daily Calories: 1766

Total Monthly Calories: 36 388

 

Activity:

Nothing - I was very busy getting as much done as possible today and decided that today and tomorrow would be for getting things done that I don't want to have to worry about once this diet begins! I was productive so I don't feel guilty and I think feeling a bit soft and sluggish will only help me embrace this contest diet that much more!

 

Total Monthly Activity: 29 Hours

 

January 21:

AM Weight: 160 lbs

 

Food:

9 am: 1 Cup Fibre One (200) 1/2 Cup Lactaid (45)

12 pm: Wendy's Chicken BLT Salad with 1/2 dressing (465)

2 pm: 20 Almonds (140) 2 Turkey Pepperoni (120)

6 pm: 20 Rice Crackers (166) i Can Tuna (160)

10 pm: 2 Shrimp Skewers (100) 1 Bag Smart pop (260)

 

Total Daily Calories: 1656

Total Monthly Calories: 34 622

 

Activity:

7:30 pm: 60 Minutes Activity at Adult Gymnastics

10 pm: 30 Minutes Elliptical

 

Total Daily Activity: 1.5 Hours

Total Monthly Activity: 29 Hours

January 20

AM Weight: 160.5 lbs (?)

 

Food:

9 am: Elevate Bar (my last one!) (230)

12 pm: Tortellini Soup (280)

2 pm: 2 Turkey Pepperonis (120) 20 Almonds (140)

6 pm: 1 Can Tuna (160) 10 Rice Crackers (83)

8 pm: 5 oz Chicken (234) 60 g Feta (50) 10 Rice Crackers (83)

 

Total Daily Calories: 1380

Total Monthly Calories: 32 966

 

Activity:

11 am: 60 Minutes Elliptical

 

Total Daily Calories: 1 Hour

Total Monthly Activity: 27.5 Hours

January 19

AM Weight: 159.5 lbs

 

Food:

8 am: Elevate Bar (230)

11 am: Coffee with Creamo (105)

12 pm: Vietnamese Soup (479)

4 pm: 120 g Feta (100) 20 Rice Crackers (166)

8 pm: 2 Shrimp Skewers (100) 1 Medium Sweet Potato (103)

 

Total Daily Calories: 1283

Total Monthly Calories: 31 586

 

Activity:

9:30 am: 90 Minute Snowboarding Lesson

 

Total Daily Activity: 1.5 Hours

Total Monthly Activity: 26.5 Hours

It's funny that in December I set myself up for a ridiculous goal in terms of activity and I met it - and I met my goal weight. Since then, I have let myself 'slack' a bit and have since gained four pounds even though my goal for January was only to do half the activity I did in December and lose half the amount of weight.

 

I guess lowered expectations aren't always 'key' for me!

 

I need to be a bit crazy. There's something inside me that gets excited when there's something out there to tackle that's a bit risky.... even insane. I love it. I'm a thrill seeker and I love a rush... perhaps in retrospect, this is one of the healthiest ways I have acted upon that urge!

 

I've gotten several e-mails about my 30 lbs goal for competition. I'll be the first to admit the number seems a bit out of reach. But if in the process of trying to reach 128 lbs I reach 135 and compete the leanest I've ever been... then the goal was worth setting.

 

"Try Again. Fail Again. Fail Better" - Samuel Beckett

 

This 'weight' and 'body image' preoccupation is never going to leave me. It is honestly a part of who I am. I could fight it and pretend that I don't have to think about it... but I'm not fooling anyone. I have to be in control of it, I have to set out with an intention to be better and try to hold myself accountable every day. It is only when I do this that I can live in the moment of what I am doing. When I am eating, I am enjoying it. When I am playing with my son, i am loving every second of it. When I am working, I am intensely focussed on the task at hand. And when I am working out I am in the moment as much as I can be.

 

That's why I am loving yoga. It's become a very integral part of my life. Breath, movement, checking the ego... it's so much more meaningful than anything I have ever done physically before. I long for that time to myself to experience the power of my body and centre myself around what matters most. We spend so much money and so much time on 'stuff' - we aim to have the best house we can afford, the best car we can drive, the nicest things we can find... but we sell ourselves short when it comes to our body. Last time I checked we can't 'upgrade' our body when it lets us down, we don't get another chance to 'start over' with something new - our body is the one thing that is with us from before we are born until we die.... maybe we should start taking better care of it.

 

In this last week before the big 'diet' begins I am mindful. This is the first year I can actually sense how close I am to that pro card. I can actually say that I feel that this could be my year. I have never felt so ready, so committed, so accepting of the fact that this is my time. Everything before this, every experience, every obstacle, has prepared me to be right here where I need to be. Call it vanity, call it pompousness, call it whatever you want... I know that this is my year. I feel it, I know it. I am embracing what is coming my way. And it's exciting.

January 18:

AM Weight: 159 lbs

 

Food:

9 am: Bacon Breakfast Sandwich (410)

12 pm: Elevate Bar (230)

2 pm: 4 Rice Cakes (160)

5 pm: 220 g Shrimp (218) 2 Cups Vegetables (100)

7 pm: 2 Rice Cakes (80)

 

Total Daily Calories: 1198

Total Monthly Calories: 30 303

 

Activity:

11 am: 30 Minutes Yoga

7 pm: 90 Minutes Elliptical

 

Total Daily Activity: 2 Hours

Total Monthly Activity: 25 Hours

This day is going to take a while! I was just at a wedding and am now using the calorie counter to guesstimate ingredients and portions:

 

January 17:

AM Weight: 159 lbs

 

Food:

8 am: Elevate Bar (230)

12 pm: Vietnamese Soup (479)

2 pm: 3 Salad Rolls (240) 3 Tbsp Hoi Sin (105)

4 pm: 20 Rice Crackers (166)

8 pm: 1 Cup Cream of Asparagus Soup (244) Salad with Pesto and Vinaigrette (200) Beef Wellington (420) 1 Cup Mashed Potatoes (254) Vegetables (150)

 

Total Daily Calories: 2488 Terrible

Total Monthly Calories: 29 105

 

Activity:

9:15 am: 90 Minutes Power Yoga

 

Total Daily Activity: 1.5 Hours

Total Monthly Activity: 23 Hours

January 16

AM Weight: 158 lbs

 

Food:

9 am: 1 Cup Fibre One (200) 1/2 Cup Lactaid (45) 2 Slices Turkey Bacon (70)

11 am: Elevate Bar (230)

2 pm: 10 Rice Crackers (83) 2 Cups Vegetables (100)

4 pm: Tim Hortons Yogurt (160)

6 pm: Chicken Fajita Soup (320)

8 pm: Opa Chicken Souvlaki and Caesar Salad (606)

 

Total Daily Calories: 1814

Total Monthly Calories: 26 617

 

Activity:

9 pm: 2 Hours Rebounder

 

Total Daily Activity: 2 Hours

Total Monthly Activity: 21.5 Hours

 

I'm up in weight, but I feel way more in control than I did last week.

 

At the end of the day I am in the 150's I work out most days for an hour or more and I eat pretty clean on a regular basis. Maybe it's not exceptional; but it's definitely a good way to live!

 

That was my 52nd entry on my Baby Weight Loss Progress List. I will do one more entry next Friday and then I will start a new list on the Saturday for my Contest Weight Loss. Ultimately, I would like to weigh 128 lbs by contest time. I have never weighed that before for a show. The lowest I have ever been was 140 lbs 3 days out. But I have always felt it was possible for me to be tighter and leaner. I want to push my limits this year and see what I can accomplish.

 

January 24 - 20 Weeks Out from Fitness Provincials! I want to lose about 30 lbs which is 1.5 lbs a week. 1.5 lbs a week is reasonable in theory but always anticipate setbacks... always. 1.5 lbs per week for 20 weeks straight is definitely a feat.

 

I'm excited though. I have NEVER began a contest diet in the 150's. I usually hit the 150's about 6 - 8 weeks out. It's exciting.

 

And if you haven't heard, I will be working with competitors for fitness and figure this year. I have a limited number of spots still available so please contact me immediately for details.

 

And my baby boy is almost 1 year old! He's getting funnier every day. We started gymnastics this week and he just loved running all over the floor and standing on the trampoline! He's not too sure about bouncing on it yet... we have to figure that one out! Otherwise he's fearless, he ran and crashed hard on his face yesterday when we were out and gave himself a bleeding nose! Poor little peanut!

 

And in my yoga journey I did make two 6 am Hot Yoga classes this week. I honestly love the day when I can get up and make that class. I come home and shower and am ready to go by the time Michael is up. Next week I want to make Thursday and Friday 6 am classes. That's my goal.

 

Also I will be trying a regular yoga studio by my house out this week. I will be doing some power yoga classes there and switching things up a bit. I used to do power yoga before I ever did Hot Yoga and it will be fun to try it again I think. We'll see!